July 2012

  • Tomorrow

    We are going tomorrow to see if we qualify for a that study that would give us four months of IUI with fertility drugs. I have never been so torn about anything. Never wanted to do and not do something so equally in my entire life. Well, that’s not true. I really don’t want to do this, not at all, but I…

  • Lessons in compromise. And in eating your words.

    When I first started thinking about having a family – this was in my late 20s or early 30s – I was exceptionally vocal about how I would never take fertility drugs. I thought it was selfish and foolhardy to do so. Why risk bringing more than one baby into this world when there were already too many who needed good homes.…

  • A little History

    So here is the scoop… I am 38, well I was 37 when we started. In early spring of 2011, my beau and I stopped using birth control. By June, I decided I wanted to have a better idea of how shit worked so, by July I had a full month of fertility charting. By the time…

  • Unlucky 13

    It’s been 13 months. More maybe, but 13 for sure. 13 attempts. 13 charts. 13 thermal shifts. 13 two-week-waits. 13 periods. 13 failures.  13 heartbreaks. Fuck 13.